i'm back from a few days with mom in st. charles. we went out to dinner with my bro on monday. that was nice. the rest of the trip was kind of blah. i felt super stressed cuz mom decided to give me crap about money i owe her several times. i was already stressed about having enough money for a car payment & storage payment (along with all my other bills) and she stressed me out more. i also had the beginning feelings of illness... stuffy head, headache, mildly upset tummy. i left, with kitties & more stuff, around noon wednesday & spent the ride feeling increasingly icky. i thought maybe it was allergies, exacerbated by being in a small, confined space with lots of kitty fur so i got some allergy pills and some food at a truck stop. this didn't help at all... i kept feeling worse. so i arrived home with more stuff to fit in our little room, kitties, and sickness. it did feel really good to be back with J. i missed him a lot. when i got back & saw him, even tho i felt really crappy, the stress floated away & i felt so safe. i felt really bad that i came back & pretty much fell right to sleep. that's pretty much what i do when i'm sick tho, i sleep. luckily, i'm not AS achey & barfy feeling as i was yesterday. before we moved to KC, J told me that i'd get sick after we moved & he was right. feeling stressed out when i was at mom's wore me out too. so, now i'm back & seemingly returning to my insomniac ways. J only has class one friday a month & tomorrow isn't one of them so we'll get to spend some time with me NOT being all sickly. i told him that we really need to get some bbq this weekend. we've been in KC for 2 weeks & that's really too long to be here without trying some bbq, right? so that's my only real plan for the weekend so far. one last thought: it is very disconscerting to be sitting in the dark with J sleeping a few feet from me & have him suddenly say "behind you! turn around... turn around" and then realize he's talking in his sleep again.