a short list of things that rock my world lately: basil & pesto foccacia from panera/bread co., mocha coffee "bliss" drink with orange syrup from latte land, pottery barn and z gallerie, light up rubber duckies i saw at sharper image (i have a rubber ducky themed bathroom in mind for the near future) and "the better cheddar" store. i am going to have no trouble finding good christmas presents this year. i already found good stuff from my bro & mom. J insists that all he wants is a flat screen tv but i don't know if i could swing that one. i'm hoping to get to the art museum tomorrow (taking mike's advice from my last post's comments). i am a real art lover, i was an art major in college (several times, in fact), but i am often just an immature goof as well. i told J that, in continuation of the "J humps things" pics from chicago, i have a sculpture that he needs to get a picture with. in front of the art museum, i remembered that there are some claes oldenberg sculptures that are screaming to be humped... and only about halfway thru telling J about him did i realize that the name of the objects only makes it funnier. they are enormous shuttlecocks. i'm going to make a trip back to the STL to pick up some things, including my cats, on monday, probably returning to kc on wednesday. i think i'll have to pick up some bbq on the way out of town for mom cuz i know she loves it... and i loves my mama. it'll be great to spend some time with her & to bring my kitties (who i miss so much) back with me. hopefully it'll releive my home-sickness a bit. i know i'll feel better once we get settled into a home here & i get a job as well. i'm so proud of J. he's 99% sure he's got a job installling satellite. luckily the guy he talked to is actually excited about having a part time guy for evenings (which is what J would have to do because of his school schedule). they don't do installs on sundays so, even tho i know J wanted to work as much as possible & he's such a hard worker, at least he'll have one forced day off. so, if i can just get a job, we can start really looking for an apartment or house to rent. i know i keep saying crap about wanting to get a job & not feeling settled & finding an apartment... but it's really not fun to have no job & live in a hotel room. J has school to go to where he has people to interact with & make friends. i don't have that. i don't have any obligations or things i need to do or anything. it's boring & a little lonely. i feel like i don't have a "place" here yet. it's not just that we don't have a real home, it's also that i don't have anything to do. i don't have anything to keep my body & mind busy. i don't have anything to plan for or around. so, keep your fingers crossed for me to get a job. i've written much more than i'd planned to tonight! time to hit the sack so i can go be artsy & sophisticated tomorrow... or at least pretend to be.